Monthly Archives: August 2012

Intense Conversations,Track Stars, Leadership: Chicago.

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Last night was probably the most intense night of my life.  I have never connected with so many people in such a short amount of time.  Last night’s conversation with everyone on Radical Journey consisted of in depth topics that, honestly, no person would ever even feel comfortable talking about with a group of people they just met.  But us?  Psh, not us.

We brought up the subject of homosexuality in the churches, our perception of homosexuality, the Bible, relationships, marriage, sex, etc. The cool thing about this whole entire conversation was the fact that EVERYONE had different opinions about each topic.  At first, I felt really uncomfortable.  It felt weird hearing different sides of everything, because I was so used to hearing someone agree with what I said.  But to hear a bunch of Mennonite teenagers having different views of topics that are so controversial was intense.  I went to sleep feeling troubled, and I woke up feeling really awesome, because somewhere in between that conversation and my sleep, I realized that the way I thought of things my whole entire life was being stretched and expanded in really amazing ways.

This morning, I woke up at 6:15am with Anya and Joe, and we went on a 2 mile jog.  Joe is an awesome encourager, (and also a track star) and Anya is a beast at running! (She plays soccer.) So then there’s me, a marching band nerd with no athletic ability, just struggling along, panting, trying to keep up with the already slow pace that Joe and Anya set. But it was great because Joe and Anya are both really great encouragers and motivators, and running with them was definitely awesome! Granted, I did get a little bit dehydrated, which later on in the day lead to a major headache, but thank goodness for Stephanie and her ibuprofen, because it saved the day.

At 8:30am this morning, we went out to the park to start our “meeting.” Today, Betsy and Rich led our leadership workshop, where we did various activities making us work on our leadership and making us ask questions about leadership and what it means to be a leader.  We jumped some rope, trying to get all 10 of us across before the “fire” got to us, and then we had to do a pattern with these wood blocks, which we finished in just about 5 minutes total. This whole entire workshop about leadership really made me want to go out and work on the struggles that I have toward being a better leader.  It also made me realize that doing RJ requires a lot of leadership; not only towards other people, but finding the leader within yourself.

I’m absolutely in love with the people in RJ; they’ve quickly become my family.

Live Fearlessly,

Abigail Cable

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Awkwardness: Embrace It

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Orientation Day #2: Awkwardness.  Darrell basically talked to us today about how situations are going to be awkward at times, and we’ll feel really out of place.  But it’s how we use that awkwardness that will basically make us or break us.  Are we going to let it define us, or are we going to embrace it?

Being here in Chicago has made me feel really awkward.  First off, I’m from the country.  Farms is where everyone grew up, cows are neighbors, there’s one main stoplight, and football games is the biggest deal on Friday nights during fall.  Sometimes, I feel really congested here.  There are SO many different cultures in the hostel, people speak so many different languages, and I think I’m not used to it yet.  Today, Darrel sent every country on a mission: to find specific locations in downtown Chicago.  Let’s just say I’m really glad Kristin and Nat are on our team: they’re really great at finding their way around.  Me on the other hand…directions and maps aren’t really my forte.  BUT! It was really fun, because we got to walk around Chicago and see awesome sights!  We also took the CTA (Chicago Transit Authority) to get around, and I think I sort of got the hang of it.

Right now, I have a lot of emotions going on.  I feel awkward, out of place, confused, unsettled, and basically..just really awkward.  I’m not sure why I do, but I do.  But one thing I do know is that sometimes, awkward can be a really great thing.  I’m learning how to handle myself in these situations, and I’m learning how to embrace it.  Everyone on RJ is just flat out awesome, and I feel like their becoming my family.

I’m not really missing home yet, just a few specific people who’s faces I was used to seeing every day.  I’m looking forward to skyping them soon. (:

Yes, I’m extremely uncomfortable right now, but if I was comfortable in my faith, then something’s wrong.

Live Fearlessly,

Abigail Cable

CHICAGO!!

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I arrived this morning in Chicago around 9am their time…not mine. Therefore, my time was kinda screwed up in my head, but it’s becoming easier.  I’ve been awake since 2:30, and running on only 2 hours of sleep is intense!  But I’m loving this.  Darrell picked me up from the airport at around 9:15, and he drove me back to the hostel where I got to chill out for about 45 minutes, get on Facebook, and just relax.  After that, I went with Darrell to go and pick up 2 more people from the airport, Joe and Sam.  Joe is going to England and Sam is going to Paraguay.  Afterwards, Joe, Sam, and I walked around Chicago for a bit, found an amazing place to eat called Potbelly, and bonded over fantastic sandwiches.  As of right now, I’m helping Joe set up a blog and eating peach rings: the life.

So far, this experience is amazing and it’s only day one.  I’m not homesick yet, but I’m sure that will come within time.  I can’t wait to update everyone!

Live Fearlessly,

Abigail Cable

Radical: Are We For Jesus Christ?

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Today has been a pretty uneventful day, yet still so stressful.  I look at my suitcases, clothes, and insanely messy guest bedroom, and I just get a little bit freaked out.  But I’m beyond excited to do this.  This is a once in a lifetime opportunity, and I know that God is going to work.  It’s time for me to block out any negative voices and go forth in faith.  I’ve been called.

My good friend, pastor of Crucified church, Josh Knipple, gave me 2 books that he recommended I should read during my time in South Africa.  I’m sure they’re both familiar to you:  Not A Fan by Kyle Idleman and Radical by David Platt.  I started reading Radical this evening, and let me just say that this book….DANG. Not only does it make me feel like a pretty lousy Christian, but it makes me realize that I need to let go of the things I’m holding on to because Jesus said “Follow me.” Not “Follow me, tell your friends you’re peacin’ out, and make sure you grab a few things for the next few years.” He simply says “Follow me.”  What am I willing to do to be able to give it ALL up, walk away, and follow Jesus Christ?

I have no idea what lies ahead of me. I have no idea what’s going to happen.  I have no idea what my plans consist of after I come home.  For right now, I’m living for each day, because life is WAY TOO SHORT.  Stop feeling like you have to plan for years to come.  God’s got you. (:

Do my parents really agree with that? Heck no.  But for some reason, I’ve been in this weird rebellion with my parents lately (don’t worry, it’s a good rebellion.)  My parents can be uptight sometimes, and I don’t think they really understand what it means to give it all away and follow Christ.  I mean, do any of us really understand what that means?  But I feel like I’m starting to understand the concept of it, and they still don’t get it; I think they think their daughter is a bit crazy.  And to the world, I definitely am. To myself, I even am sometimes hahahaha.  But to God, He’s calling me to be even crazier.  In fact, He’s calling every one of us to be crazy; BE RADICAL.

So to end this blog for the evening, here’s my point:  To the world, you are going to look insane, crazy, be called names, maybe even be killed.  But Christ is calling you to be a Radical Christian. What are you willing to do to be Radical?

Live Fearlessly,

Abigail Cable

 

It’s Almost Time

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5 days. That’s all that stands between me and Radical Journey.  I remember when it was March, and how I thought it would take forever until August.  I was wrong.

I had a chance to tell my testimony at Crucified church in downtown Johnstown this past Sunday, and it was the most humbling experience I’ve ever had. To be able to tell people the things I’ve struggled with, the things I’ve gone through, and the God that was forever good was honestly really amazing. I want to lift up all the people right now who came and talked to me afterwards, asking me to pray for them as they are going through a process of making a decision to saying yes to God’s calling for them.  I also want to lift up the people who struggle with the same things that held me captive for years.  There is mercy, love, and forgiveness found through Jesus Christ.

I started packing this morning, not really realizing that one suitcase just might not cut it.  So I’m bringing a large suitcase, a small duffel bag, one back pack for a carry on, and also my laptop case as my other carry on. I’m getting really nervous but anxious at the same time!  There are so many emotions running through my head as I’m trying to figure everything out.  But one thing I know for sure is that God has been good. (:

Today, I’m saying goodbye to one of my best friends because she’s leaving for Wisconsin to go to college. It’s going to be a rough afternoon, but I know that God has a lot planned for her if she allows Him to guide her and direct her.   Goodbyes are never easy, but sometimes they can bring some closure.

The best part about leaving is knowing that you are coming home someday. 

Live Fearlessly,

Abigail Cable

See You Soon, Kaufman Mennonite Church

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Today, I said goodbye to my home congregation, Kaufman Mennonite Church.  It was an absolutely amazing service, filled with tears, sadness, joyfulness, and love.  I felt really blessed today as I saw the congregation come together and pray over me, blessing me as I get ready to embark on an adventure of a lifetime. All of my close friends and family came, and I can’t even begin to explain the emotions I felt. Saying goodbye to the people who have watched me grow up since I was 10, my worship team, the youth, everyone…I don’t know, I just feel like I’m already missing pieces inside of me.

I was never good with goodbyes. In fact, I suck at them.  I never really know what to say because I get so emotional and sad.  I know that I’ll see all of those people again. (:  But the fact that I won’t for a year makes me sad inside.

Tonight, I’m telling my testimony at a church I attend in the evenings in downtown Johnstown called Crucified. I’m really excited, but I can’t remember being this nervous in a long time.  I’m excited to be able to tell people my story; to let them know “Hey, I struggle with things too. I’m no better than you. God is working in me to make me a better person; to want to follow Him more, and to strive to be a leader.”  Now that I’m blogging about my testimony, I really should start working on it…2 hours before I’m supposed to speak.  I do better on the spot. (:

When I decided to start this blog, I decided to be real.  I want people to see the emotional roller coasters that I’ll be going through; I don’t want to hide any emotions.  This is going to be raw, real, and personal.  Today has been a depressing day, but I know that the clouds will soon pass over.  I just got to fight through this.

Live Fearlessly,

Abigail

The Wonderful Fed-Ex Delivery

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My visa just arrived this morning!  Pretty sure the Fed-Ex man became my best friend.

For those of you who don’t know what a visa actually looks like, you’re not alone, because I had no idea either.  What it is really is a piece of paper super glued to one section of your passport.  You have to mail all of these important documents about yourself into a South African embassy.  Mine was located in New York City, so I had to mail all of my documents there.  You send your passport along as well, and they put this really fancy piece of paper in one section of your passport, which is your visa. It’s actually really cool, and this kid right here is super excited.

I can’t believe I’m leaving in 9 days.  I still feel really unprepared: unprepared as in I should probably start packing a little.

I’M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Live Fearlessly,

Abigail